"The ones who say "you can't" & "you won't" are the most scared that "you will!"

today nick left for the Philippines! i went to the airport to send him off! he was so happy!!!! it was awesome! it was nice just to be able to sit there and talk to him in person, not just in letters haha walking down the hallway after saying goodbye to him was the WORST thing ever! that hall seemed so long! it just sucked knowing that this was the last time that i would see him till he gets back. but he did call tonight while he was at his layover in san fran!! talking to him was se-real. i mean talking to him i swear it felt like he was just down the road at his house!! i hate it! i feel like im completely alone now!  i just hope and pray nick and connors time goes by fast! it already feels like they have been gone for years now!! and its hardly been any time!! ahhhhhh screw this! but hey there doing good things right? i guess this gives me time to focus on me and things i need to do in my life!! like golf and school. haha im not going to lie the part that im scared about with nick and connor being gone is im scared im going to get married because i dont have then to keep me busy haha honestly that scares me! i cant get married with out them in my wedding!!!!!