...usually i know what im going to wright about before i start writing... tonight im just writing in hopes that it will take everything off my chest... i feel as if everything in the world is hitting me square in the chest right now. i feel so alone.... ive never felt this before.... i dont like it at all, i feel as if no one is around like im in a dark room trying to get out. everything i seem to do some how makes a U turn and comes back right at me. when people told me growing up was hard i thought they were crazy, but now i know what they mean im at so many cross roads in my life... its just a mess, i just hope that ill make the right decisions. i thought by keeping my self busy with work and school would help with all of this... but i all most find my self looking back at my past.. and what i had then looking forward to whats coming. the one conclusion i have come too is that i need to put my self first. i always put other people before me, thats a good thing dont get me wrong but i feel that why im partly in this dark room.... its time to think about me and do whats best for me.... i hate making resolutions because they never happen.. so ill just set some goals... this yeah im going to work on every area of my life but more importantly im going to focus on me. make sure that im doing everything for me that i can!